raoul-duke

My whole life is the same, but reset. My insomnia is gone for the first time in 15 years. I actually dre am now, or at least I actual remember having them. For the last 15 years, it felt like I would close my eyes and open them fifteen minutes later. I never felt rested, or motivated, I was just awake.

Is it wrong to feel cured?

I feel cleansed, and rejuvenated. Regret and resent doesn’t exist. Happiness is pure. I will remember.

I feel like I lost two weeks in twenty-four hours. The math doesn’t add up but there’s no need to make sense of it. Things are still returning to normal, but I doubt everything will fall back into place. On Thursday I slipped into the slip, and my mind came unzipped, but the only sound I can hear is clickclickclickclickclick. It’s a skipping track, ski ip ping tra tra ack, in my head.